I am serving the first phase of my sentence at the Bergen Prison and Cryogenic Center, Osterøy Division. As prisons go, it's almost cozy. A long time ago, this campus was a school. Then, late in the last century, it was made into a minimum security facility. There are no bars anywhere. I may have as many blankets as I want. I sleep in a private room equipped with a wooden chair and an antique writing desk.
The prison governor herself summons me for a visit in her office every week. She always asks if I have any complaints about how I am being treated, as if I were a tourist here on Ulvsnesøy Island.
I am cold all the time, but that's hardly worth mentioning. Instead I tell her, "I'm going to die. You people have sentenced me to death."
"There is for me."
At my next therapy session, the therapist asks if I am contemplating suicide.
"Did the governor tell you that? She doesn't understand. You don't understand. My sentence is a death sentence, even if that isn't what the court had in mind."
"You won't die," he says. "But a lot will probably have changed by the time you are resuscitated. People you know may have died in the interim. The world will have changed. Change can be traumatic. It's understandable."
I glare at him. "You don't get it! You don't understand the first thing about my...crimes." Then I hug myself for warmth. He keeps his office too cool.
"So explain it to me," he says.
I do. I explain it all. When I have finished, he tells me that he's not worried. He's not worried! Well, he's not going to be frozen, is he?
I try to tell the physician who regularly checks my health and tests my reaction to small samples of the chemicals they will use. "You're killing me," I say.
"You're in good health."
"I will die."
"We have never botched a resuscitation," he says. "You'll be fine." Then he tells me to hold still for a subcutaneous injection of a micro-crystalizing agent. "We want to make sure you aren't allergic. This may sting a little."
I am running out of time. My procedure is tomorrow. They will freeze me solid and then move me to a storage facility in Vadsø. Even Vadsø thaws in the summer.
The only person who might understand is Sponheim, the Corrections Sociologist. He just arrived. It's his job to understand me thoroughly and to write a report that his successors will use to decide if it's safe to revive me. His report will help them decide if I am no longer a threat to society because society has changed enough to deal with me, or has learned to treat behaviors like mine.
"I am already remorseful!" I tell him at our first interview. "I won't do it again!" We are sitting at a table by the water. A light mist falls. "I shouldn't have done it, shouldn't even have thought about it. Once, I was one of the people fighting to preserve the last wild polar bears! I wanted to protect the earth!" I get myself worked up. I am close to tears.
Sponheim checks the screen on his handheld. "Your sentence calls for a review of your case every ten years. Ten years isn't that long."
"I'll die! You don't understand!"
"Make me understand," he says. "Start at the beginning."
The beginning. The very beginning? That would start with growing up on the western edge of Boulder, Colorado, right against the foothills. Our street dead-ended at the trail head for a mountain park. Deer visited our yard so often that my mother gave up on trying to have a garden. I saw a bear once from my bedroom window. My father and I hiked the trails together until I was old enough to go out alone. When fresh snow fell, my footprints were usually the first ones on the trail.
Or maybe the beginning came when I knew that the mountains of Colorado weren't quite paradise. Some of the deer suffered a wasting disease that no one could explain. Every summer, more and more bears came into town because drier winters made for poor foraging in the mountains. The authorities tagged the bears and relocated them, but since there still wasn't sufficient food in the back country, the bears would find their way back into town. To be shot dead.
Before I was out of high school, I understood that the earth was in trouble. I carried signs. I unfurled banners. At twenty, I dropped out of college to live on handouts and protest full-time. What was the point of studying molecules when whole species were going extinct? With like-minded people, I traveled to Churchill, Manitoba, to bring attention to the late arrival of the snow pack. But we were too late. Canadian wildlife officials had already captured the remaining bears so they wouldn't starve.
Signs and banners weren't enough. I started to spike trees, set fire to new construction, and destroy machinery.
"As I understand it," Sponheim says, "when you hide a spike in a tree, you endanger the lives of sawmill operators. Yes? Is this appropriate?"
I look at him. He is half-smiling in a friendly way, encouraging me to keep talking.
"So what?" I said.
"What do you mean?"
"Why should people be more important than any other species?” I don’t try to hide my anger. “You asked me to start at the beginning. Maybe that's it. The real beginning is when I started to hate people."
It wasn't a great jump from loving the earth to hating people. Before I had dropped out of college, I learned that every so often, a super-disruptive species evolves. A super-predator, say, that is so successful that it hunts out the very populations it depends on. It feeds itself to death.
Aren't we like that, we human beings? We are everywhere, crowding out other species except for those that are like us, from our songbird-eating cats to Caulerpa taxifolia.
"Caulerpa?" says Sponheim.
"A macro algae," I tell him. "An aquarium plant that was accidentally released into the Mediterranean. Like human beings, it is too successful. It crowds out everything else. Diverse marine meadows become deserts of Caulerpa."
"Ah, yes. I have heard of it."
"You should have. It will wipe out the last commercial fishing in the Mediterranean in five years. Maybe sooner."
What I hated was our arrogance, as if it didn’t matter what we did. When rich people started freezing themselves when they got sick, taking up space and energy to stay around until they could be cured, I couldn’t stand it any more.
Humanity was headed for a cliff. One day, we’d look down expecting to see the web of life that had always sustained us, and there would be almost nothing there. A biosphere that could support ten billion of us would be gone. What was left might feed ten millions. Ten million very sorry people.
And if that was where we were headed anyway, why not speed things up? Why fight it? In fact, why not hasten the end so that I could see people coming to realize what they had done? Little by little, I began to formulate a plan. Little by little, I began to find companions who were as frustrated as I was, who were as sick of fighting human nature.
"Did you consider," Sponheim says, "the fate of the people who would starve?"
I don't answer. I look out across the water. The truth is, I used to have fantasies about families in big houses with nice furniture fighting to the death for a crust of bread. Spread and consume. Spread and consume. See where it gets you.
When I continue my silence, he says, "Did you expect that you would survive?"
Again, I don't want to say. We did lay in supplies. We planned to live long enough at least to gloat. Perhaps we would even endure the whole crisis and emerge as the people who would seed a new race that scratched out a bare subsistence and lived in fearful awe of the earth.
"What exactly did you do?"
"It's in the trial transcripts."
"Yes," Sponheim agrees. "But I want to hear it from you."
We did our work in greenhouses, hidden deep in the Norwegian forest. The plants we grew were all species that were already creating ecological havoc somewhere. Caulerpa taxifolia in the Mediterranean sea. Knapweed on the rangelands of North America. Japanese knotweed along European rivers. Dangerous exotics.
We made them more dangerous. We bred Kudzu that could survive harder frosts. We made Knapweed poisonous to the insects that were used to control its spread. Our Caulerpa could grow in waters as cold as the North Sea.
Once our plants were well established, vast expanses of rangeland would become useless for grazing—poisonous for horses and too bitter for cattle to eat. Fisheries would collapse as Caulerpa overgrew productive seabeds. Waterfowl would starve while foraging in wetlands choked with purple loosestrife.
Sponheim says, "I don't doubt that you would have caused trouble, you and your compatriots, by releasing those plants."
"Nothing less than total economic collapse," I tell him. "When it happens, it will make the Great Depression look like a walk in the park."
"Ah, but your operation was raided. You were shut down. Your plants, your greenhouses and aquariums were all destroyed."
"Everything physical, yes. You're right. That was all destroyed. But our ideas..." I look him in the eye. "Our ideas are out. They're everywhere."
Sponheim frowns. "I see. But it takes someone to implement them."
"Do you think I'm so rare? Or my anger? Do you think my anger is unique?"
"Not unique among your fellow conspirators," he says. "But in the general population..."
"Let me tell you, I had little trouble finding such people. There are others. Perhaps they are already at work. Some of them will be smarter than I am, better than I was at making invasive plants worse.”
Sponheim looks skeptical.
“Suppose, then, that no one does take up our cause. All right. Then the disaster will take fifty years, not ten or twelve. It will still come, don’t you see? And if I’m still frozen? When the fishing boats return with a twentieth of their catch, when farm yields drop and hunters nearly always come home with empty hands, how long do you think Norway will continue to keep electricity in the power grid? How long do you think you'll keep me safely frozen? If civilization as we know it fails, I will thaw. Not a proper thaw. Just a power failure. I will die."
"It... It doesn't seem likely to me. People do want to solve these problems."
"You should be able to tell someone how sorry I am. There should be some sort of appeal."
"Appeals are strictly limited," Sponheim says.
"Please."
"But you see, it's out of my hands, really. We have a justice system that doesn't drag matters out. In the whole scheme of things, the prisoner loses so little by being frozen for ten years, or even a hundred."
"One hundred years?”
"Even if your remorse is genuine, society has a right to protect itself."
"And if ecological collapse comes in the meantime?"
Sponheim considered me. He turned off his handheld. He looked out over the water, then back at me. "In that case," he said, "I will consider you lucky. You won't feel a thing."
About the author: Bruce Holland Rogers
Eugene, Oregon.
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