BIG Brother beauty Melinda Messenger

I WAS AFRAID OF GOLDIE... HE HURT ME AND SAID HE'D RIP MY HEAD OFF

BIG Brother beauty Melinda Messenger has told how she crept under her duvet and sobbed her heart out during the game show because of housemate Goldie's constant Big Brother bullying.

The TV presenter and former Page 3 girl revealed she became genuinely frightened of the rapper and actor after he pushed her and warned he'd rip off her head.

Things got so bad she even considered quitting the house, but the brave mum-of-two says she became determined to stand up to Goldie, who just two weeks ago was exposed in the News of the World as a drug dealer.

Melinda, voted third by Big Brother viewers behind Les Dennis and the winner Mark Owen, said: "Goldie was very subtle and clever about his bullying.

"I felt like I was getting a series of punches from him, but couldn't tell what direction they were coming from.

"I was actually physically afraid of him at one point. We were play-fighting by the pool. He pushed me and that was a joke, but then I tried to push him and he physically threw me. It did hurt. He did frighten me at that point. I was looking at him thinking, ‘He's a big strong man and he doesn't like me.

"‘I'm only 5ft 2ins. I will fight for myself, I'm not afraid to do that, but what chance do I stand?'

"He was looking at me after that saying, ‘I'm gonna wipe that smile off your face.' He was saying he wanted to rip my head off, wanted to slice the tendons in my neck. This wasn't funny any more."

Tears

Melinda hid her anguish from the other housemates—but broke down when no one was looking.

While the cameras were trained on Les and Goldie making a quilt, Melinda, 31, admits she was crying under her bedclothes.

She said: "I really didn't want to cry on live TV. But Goldie reduced me to tears because of his bullying. I told everyone I was going for a nap, then just hid under the covers and started to cry. I did it as quietly as possible so the cameras wouldn't spot me.

"I felt so lonely and isolated. I felt Goldie was targeting me. I missed home and felt I wasn't having a laugh any more.

"I thought, ‘Well if it carries on this way, if I really have had enough, then just go home.'"

But then Melinda decided to face up to her enemy.

She said: "I thought, ‘Oh, don't be stupid. It'll all be over soon. I don't have to live here. I'm going home soon.'

"I said to Goldie, ‘You are bullying me. Is that because I threaten you?' It sounds ridiculous, a tiny blonde woman saying that to a giant of a man—but it's true.

"I think Goldie bullied me because he was determined to win. Sue told me he'd tried to talk her into voting tactically—told her they should vote out the strongest people, the favourites. And he'd say to me the whole time that I was a favourite. I think his bullying was a way of breaking me down.

"I couldn't believe his remarks when he came out of the house. Calling me a ‘white monkey' and ‘super ugly' is just vicious."

But Melinda reckons she has suffered far worse. She said: "The most emotional thing I've been through is the post-natal depression I suffered after the birth of my son, Flynn, last February.

"There were lots of tears. I really had to fight to go on working, to get out in the world. My natural urges were just to hide away.

"I remember I'd go off and hide in the garage. I rang the doctor who said the feelings would pass and he was right.

"It all passed quite suddenly. We had a family holiday and that really lifted me. I think I'm the type of person who can pick themselves up and deal with emotions, get over them."

Nevertheless Melinda was upset by remarks made by lesbian comedienne Sue Perkins, who was evicted on Thursday.

"I was really shocked when I heard Sue said I was like an emotionless Vulcan. That genuinely upset me," said Melinda.

"I had stopped Sue from cracking up in the house. There were times when I could see she was on the edge, about to lose it, and I'd talk to her and convince her to hold it together. Now I hear she went into the Diary Room and ridiculed me for trying to help her. Whatever I said she seemed to twist.

"Sue says I'm emotionless. Well sorry, Sue, but I'd been blubbing my eyes out. I just chose to handle it in a different way. Privately. Why attack me for that?"

Melinda had no problems getting on with her other housemates—even Les Dennis who sparked fears he was losing his marbles because he talked to himself and the chickens and went swimming in his pyjamas.

Loopy

But Melinda said: "Les is far from loopy. I think he's lovely Les. He's a genuine, warm, fun guy. I admire him for being brave enough to show who he really is.

"I can totally see why he and Amanda are together. I've known Amanda for a while and she's a lovely person. Now I know Les I can see they complement one another perfectly."

Melinda was delighted when former Take That star Mark won on Friday night. She said: "He's a really loving kind of person with a gorgeous spirit, a lovely karma. He's not going to trample on anyone else to get what he wants and I love him for that. He so deserves every success that he's ever had and he deserves more. I'm glad he won."

Presenter Anne Diamond came in for high praise too."I really, really loved Anne," said Melinda. "I was expecting this professional, slick woman. But she was warm and gorgeous. Anne was up for having fun and for laughing at herself."

But the best meeting of all for Melinda was when she finally met up with husband Wayne Roberts again. And last night Melinda was planning to celebrate her freedom by making passionate love to the lucky 27-year-old.

She said: "I saw Wayne for a second after I left the house on Friday and reached out to hug him, but I got ripped away for the live show. We met up again in the early hours of the morning and stayed in a hotel.

"It was a wonderful reunion. Unfortunately, it wasn't a passionate one because our two-year-old Morgan slept between us! It was lovely, a tender, cuddly, kissy reunion."

But she admitted: "I can't wait to get Wayne into bed now. I've heard Goldie said he made love five times the night he got out of the house. Well we haven't managed that...yet."